I used to think my worth was tied to what I ate.
That eating "bad" foods made me bad.
That if I could just control my cravings, shrink my body, and have more discipline, then maybe—just maybe—I would finally be enough.
I didn’t come to that belief on my own.
I grew up in a house where food was always a thing.
My dad would constantly comment on what was on my plate.
My mom was always on some new diet—pills, shots, whatever promised her the quickest results—but I never saw her drink water, move her body, or actually nourish herself. It was always about losing weight, not about feeling good.
That taught me something dangerous. That my body was a problem to fix.
That I needed to be smaller to be worthy. That food was something to battle, not something to enjoy. And I carried that weight—far beyond childhood.....
The Guilt That Followed Me Everywhere
When I finally moved out, I rebelled.
I ate what I wanted, when I wanted, without someone watching over me. But even then, the guilt never left.
Every bite carried shame.
"I shouldn't be eating this." "
If I was more disciplined, I wouldn’t crave this."
"I'm failing. I don’t have control over myself."
I hated how food had this power over me. How no matter what I ate, I still didn’t feel good enough.
And it wasn’t just about food—it bled into my relationships, too.
I had a boyfriend who adored me, who saw me as beautiful. But I couldn’t believe him.
No matter how much he reassured me, I twisted his words in my mind, convinced that I wasn’t enough. Until one day, he just… stopped saying anything at all.
He told me he was afraid to comment on my body at all—afraid I’d take it the wrong way, afraid he’d say something that would send me spiraling.
At the time, I thought I wasn’t enough for him. But looking back, I realize—I wasn’t enough for myself. 💔
I couldn’t receive love because I didn’t believe I was lovable.
The Moment Everything Changed
After we broke up, I stood in front of my mirror one day, and for the first time, I saw it—I couldn’t even see myself.
I wasn’t looking at me. I was looking through the filters of my dad’s voice, my mom’s struggles, my ex’s silence.
And in that moment, I made a decision.
I wasn’t going to spend the rest of my life fighting myself.
I was going to learn how to love myself, nourish myself, accept myself—without waiting for someone else to do it first.
At first, it felt uncomfortable. Forced. Even fake. But I kept going.
I stopped labeling food as good or bad.
I stopped punishing myself for eating.
I started moving my body—not because I hated it, but because I loved it enough to take care of it. And one day, I caught my reflection in the mirror, and for the first time in my life—I saw myself through my own eyes instead of everyone else's.
I was beautiful. I was whole. And I had always been enough.
Rewriting the Story
I realized I had to let go of the lies I had been carrying for years.
"If I eat this, I’m failing." → One meal does not define me. My body knows how to process and love me through it. ✨
"If I was more disciplined, I wouldn’t crave this." → Cravings aren’t a sign of weakness. They’re my body speaking to me, and I listen. ✨
"If I don’t look a certain way, I won’t be loved." → I am lovable exactly as I am. My worth is not tied to my weight. ✨
"Food is the enemy." → Food is fuel, nourishment, and pleasure. I allow myself to enjoy it without guilt. ✨
And the more I repeated these truths, the more they became real.
The food guilt? The body shame? The constant feeling of not being enough?
It didn’t belong to me anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The Mirror Work That Changed Everything
If you’ve struggled with food guilt, I want you to try this:
1️⃣ Stand in front of the mirror. Look at yourself—not with criticism, but with curiosity.
2️⃣ Say this out loud:
💖 "My body is my home, and I treat it with love."
💖 "I am not my past. I am free to create a new relationship with food and with myself."
💖 "I trust my body to guide me. I nourish myself with love, not shame."
💖 "I am already enough."
At first, it might feel weird. It might feel fake.
But keep saying it. Keep choosing love, even when guilt wants to creep in. Keep listening to yourself instead of the voices that never belonged to you in the first place.
Because you are not broken. You do not need fixing.
You are already enough.
What’s Next? Let’s Heal Together.
This journey isn’t meant to be done alone. Healing happens in community.
💛 Take a moment to share inside the feed: What old belief about food or your body are you ready to let go of? How has your relationship with yourself been shaped by your past?
Your reflections, your voice, and your journey matter.
We are walking this path together, and every share is a ripple of healing in this space. Drop your thoughts in the group—let’s rewrite this story for ourselves and for each other.
👉🏽 Head to the feed and share your experience. Let’s grow together.
💖 You are already enough.
Your healing is happening.
Your power is rising.
Let’s keep going together.
With Love & Power,
Amber Breanna
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